Friday, December 14, 2007

Black....


I came to Kolkata with high hopes of enjoying time with friends, meeting relatives, going out, having fun, spend time with my mom.


Look at my current situation, I am confined to the shelter of my study room, as carpenters work on the door of my bedroom, my mother too busy in her daily schedule & has diverted her attention to the carpenters. No time for me, sadly.


My friends are all battling for dear life, with their semester exams going on, and they'll continue upto 18th or 20th of December, so another week of dull days for me, sitting in front of my PC & blogging or playing FIFA 2007.


Coming to relatives, my closest & dearest cousin is also having her exams, my uncles are outta town with their families, my cousin bro is sick, and so, I've reached a dead end in here also.


So, I'm here counting days which seem to continue for eternities & cursing my luck for having such a horrendous time in my home town.

Thursday, December 13, 2007

Announcement

Added a new background music to my blog, I hope the readers would like it, its one of my favorites of all time, if not the favorite, "Right Here Waiting For You" by "Richard Marx."


P.S. I have also created a poll on "Background Music" asking for the opinion of the readers, please feel free to Vote.

Regards,
-Sam.

Alone With Everybody

the flesh covers the bone
and they put a mind
in there and
sometimes a soul,
and the women break
vases against the walls
and the men drink too
much
and nobody finds the
one
but keep
looking
crawling in and out
of beds.
flesh covers
the bone and the
flesh searches for more than
flesh.

there's no chance
at all: we are all trapped
by a singular
fate.

nobody ever finds
the one.

the city dumps fill
the junkyards fill
the madhouses fill
the hospitals fill
the graveyards fill

nothing else
fills.

----Charles Bukowski----

I really like the title & the amazing contradiction of words which prove to be accurate at the same time.

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

Celebrating Christmas


We, the people of Blogger, are, after all, middle class people, some rich too. We celebrate Christmas splendidly, because, it is the one day of the year where we all can unite. We become spendthrifts, trying to buy or provide every possible amenity that our loved ones can desire. So all in all, Christmas to us, is a time for merriment. Everyone is happy. It seems that there can't be any sorrow anywhere.

But, what about the poor, hapless children crowding in the road-sides? What about the beggars who live on the streets? What about the fever-stricken, homeless people of Africa or the neglected ones? Have we ever thought of them? Did someone ever ask them, "What do you need?" or, maybe, "Would you like a new cloth?". The answer is no. We all are too pre-occupied with our own selves. But, they too are humans, they too have dreams & they too like us, want to celebrate Christmas. But, all their wishes vanish into thin air for they are poor, their lives have been engulfed by poverty & negligence. The children, they too want to dress in new clothes & go to the churches to pray, but, all they get is maybe, a torn cloth. Sometimes, we see that there are a few well-wishers who donate somethings to them, like food, necessities, clothes etc. But, only few, very few, & that too, when do charity work, that is donate to organizations, half of what they give, don't go to the intended people in need. So, the bottomline is, they remain in misery. And that dstroys all their dreams.

But, this scene can be changed if we, collectively, help them to get out of this situation. We spend so much lavishly, we don't have counts how our money gets spent, here & there. Can't we just do something to see our fellow human beings live a happy life? Can't we each just donate $1 for their welfare? In a large city like New York or Paris or London or Mumbai , a one-dollar contribution from each person can lead to a huge sum of money, running into millions. That would be more than enough to provide for all of them.

But, we would think, what we would get in return? They can't repay us. Probably not, we can't get any expensive things from them. Or maybe, we can, we can get their smiles, their happiness, which we'll feel happy that we've given them, & last we can get their blessings, which is far more expensive than all the material wishes we desire in our life.

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

Hmm..What To Say?

The following article contains explicit adult content & reader discretion is advised. The views expressed are purely the author's views & readers have the full right of agreeing with it or conflicting/contrasting with it. Please don't read it if you don't think you can handle the words!!
This is a request, not a command.


Well, I had always prided myself on being more informative about life of the people of The States or United Kingdom than others, mostly my friends. I have chatted with many people, the majority of them being teenagers.
At first, I thought that their way of growing up was so adventurous & exciting, they are free-birds after they turn 16, completely independant in whatever activities they indulge. In India, to some extent, we're bogged down by our parents, a fact is not to my liking. Then, as I grew more experienced on their way of growing up, I got the real picture & it seemed really atrocious & disgusting to me.
Here, I'll add that I am not criticizing the whole American or British culture, because not all people are like that. But the vast majority of teenagers, I don't know for some reason are nothing but sex crazy people. If you visit
Chat Avenue or for that matter any other leading chat site & enter one of the rooms, all you'll see are the following messages & comments which inundate the page:

1) Any horny girls wanna see a hot naked boy wank on cam, please private message (pm) me, only cam2cam (c2c) & hot, sexy girls with great boobs.

2)Any sexy boys who wanna show me their big dicks/cocks & pay me $1 or Pound 1 for seeing my completely naked show, please pm or add me in Msn [and then, they give their respective e-mails]

I don't know what has gotten into these people, well, if they are 18+ & they wanna have sex or c2c, then, its ok, but a couple of days back, when I visited a chat room for a normal friendly chat, a 12-year old girl asked me, "Would you mind fucking me hard? "
I was completely taken aback by such an outrageous statement coming from a teenager who was on her first years of puberty.
It seems that most of the teenagers can't think of anything but sex & love & seduction. Here again, I am not taking into account all the people, but, the dominant force, that is the teenage society who love to test their adult skills at the bare ages of 12,13,14 etc.

Well, to conclude with, I would say Indian culture (or way of growing up) & our lifestyle are much more ethical & moral than their ways. I don't blame their parents, because most of them work & they don't know what their sons & daughters are doing at home. Maybe, I sound a little harsh, but, that's the real story. It would seem wrong on our part to indulge in full-fledged sex in our early teenage years, but to them, it is not as they're accustomed to it & it is right to them.

Many of you (especially Americans & Britons) after reading this article may blame me or criticize me or abuse me, I will take that heartily, but, do you think that its right for a child of 12 or 13 years to think about losing virginity at that tender age instead of concentrating on her studies, you can't deny that its true. May be, you people like that, appreciate that, and to a poor humble Indian, it only seems against morality. Believe me, this article is the result of 5 years of chatting with teenagers from nearly all the states of USA & nearly the whole of UK, its not a mere dull imagination of mine, its not a grudge, its a reality, I am not against teenagers indulging in sexual acts, I am against kids & early teenage people having that impression on their minds that sex is the all-important thing on Earth, a thing they simply just can't wait for till they turn 18 or 20.

P.S. Very few Indian girls/boys can be found in such websites lingering on, looking for sex.

Monday, December 10, 2007

New Installation

Installed the new shout-box, I sincerely hope that visitors will use, it. Hell, if they don't I will use it & keep chatting with myself! Lol.



On a more serious note, please test out this one, I know many of you are familiar with it, so



Keep Shouting!! :) :)

-Sam.

Sunday, December 9, 2007

A Sunday Showdown


Story from Times Of India & Bangalore Mirror


Scene: Cubbon Park, MG Road, Bangalore, Sunday, 25th November, 2007.
A green tree snake slithering on a tree branch, trying to look for food on a damp afternoon in the city. It eventually found out its victim, a baby parrot, peacefully lying in its shelter, unaware of the incoming danger. The snake seemed to be ready for the kill, a nice meal which would serve the purpose of meeting his needs for the day.

Enter the Parent Parrots & there was a twist in the tale. The mother started guarding the nest, while the father took his aim at the snake's tail, in a desperate bid to teach him a lesson. The snake, completely unprepared for such a violent resistance, retreated back a little, but, didn't altogether abandon his mission. He kept crawling towards the nest. The mother parrot had seen enough, and she too, joined in the attack, pecking away on the tail of the hapless snake with a venomous intent. The combined efforts of the parents proved a little too much for their opponent who was clearly looking to get away with a easy catch, underestimating the power of the birds. He started his retreat back into his den, but, the parrots followed & kept on nagging & striking him near the caudal region.

Visitors to the park watched, awed by the scene they were experiencing, too overwhelmed to take any action. Eventually the Forest Officials came & rescued the snake, which would otherwise have been gravely injured & treated it.

P.S. The strategy & the on-the-spot courage & plan of the parrots amazed me, they knew that if they tried to take on the snake one-on-one facing him, they would make a meal out of themselves, so instead, they took the back door & came up triumphant, saving their baby & winning the hearts of the stunned onlookers.


Original Story from Times Of India:

A hunt for a snake created panic among visitors at Cubbon Park on Saturday noon. An 8-foot-long rat snake climbed a Gulmohar tree in front of the Bangalore Press Club in search of a meal.

Calls of alarm from a bunch of parakeets trying to protect their newborns and unhatched eggs on the tree attracted onlookers. Soon, a brigade of photographers converged on the spot.

After an SOS was made to a snake rescue team, reptile conservationist Mohan reached the spot and rescued the snake.

It was released at Bannerghatta National Park.

Conservationists, however, say, this amounts to "interference with nature”. Hundreds of reptiles co-exist with other creatures in Cubbon Park.

"It's unfair to relocate them," an urban ecologist said.

"This is the breeding season (September to January) of Rose-Ringed Parakeets, which are common in Cubbon Park, along with 100-plus bird species. They nest in tree holes carved by the Lesser Golden-Backed Woodpecker.
The snakes generally feed on the eggs and newborns during this season," said an ornithologist.

Saturday, December 8, 2007

London At Night....




Memories of the bustling city from the dark corners of my mind....



The Big Ben, standing tall & handsome, overlooking the teeming millions gliding past it, no time to admire its uniqueness & beauty.

The old double-decker, the heart of London, an experience on its own, though there are double-deckers in Kolkata also, this was a completely new enriching experience I had, treasured in my cerebrum.






The majestic Thames, the soul of the capital, slithering on at her own pace, ignorant of the happenings of the city, the people who worship here, love her, adore her & depend on her for their livelihood.






The famous red telephone booths, witnesses of innumerable movies, stand alone beckoning the visitors to have their own "moments of fame."

The road-side benches, a perfect place for lovers, sitting in the dark & utter words of romance, the trees shielding them from the voyeurs who haunt the streets at night.



A perfect blend of every element of Earth, a visitor's paradise in terms of sight-seeing, shopping, enjoyment, you name it, you will get it!

Dreams

Dreams I have,
Where I am never wrong;
Dreams I have,
In which I remain forever young.

Dreams I have,
With skies of sun & blue;
Dreams in which
Every known wish comes true.

Dreams I have,
In lands of seas & plains,
Dreams where there are
Only bullock carts & steam-trains.

Dreams I have-
Strolling on winding roads studded with trees,
Dreams which show
Honest people residing in peaceful cities.

Dreams where colorful birds sing
And what a joy it brings to hear their melodious tones,
Dreams in which animals subsist
In perfect harmony, nurturing their owns.

Dreams I have, where money is
Not the indispensable craze on Earth
Dreams in which life canters on,
Love has no dearth.

Dreams in which a million stars
Sparkle as bubbles of hope,
Dreams where existence thrives
Without the slightest tinge of grope.

Dreams where I can see, I'm happy
Contended with my own humble ways,
Dreams in which unknown future glows
In bright, glistening rays.

Dreams where I have the person I love
And she's with me through all
Dreams in brief, dissolve each grief
Only Death will bring my downfall.

Dreams which seem strikingly real
Dreams which arouse expectations,
Dreams in which I cross frontiers
And migrate to every nation.

Dreams 'they' say, I shouldn't have
For those are hard to believe,
Dreams get shattered, pulling me down to Earth,
Proving to be mere fantasies!

Thursday, December 6, 2007

Betrayal


Her eyes were transfixed upon him,
Her face bore a perplexed look of utter disbelief,
Hands drawn close to her chest-
Shielding the scarlet mosaic of blood.
The vibrant colors had turned into a ghostly white,
Her mouth was open in an awkward shape,
Trying desperately to squeeze out some words.
Tears streamed down the "once rosy" cheeks,
She experienced a sudden thrust of agonizing pain;

As a final action, she recalled the past memories,
They were so much in love, (or seemed to be in love),
They were inseparable, Oh!
all the promises he'd made to her,
Of lifelong companionship & continual support,
They seemed so hollow now, false & unreal;
Oh! the divine moments, were they all illusory too?
Yes, her life was only a struggle in vain!
He, whom she'd trusted above all, Had
betrayed her, had stabbed the knife into her heart
And tore it apart
With a merciless blow;
"How...." the words faded away into the murky silence
The blood congealed in the circulating veins-
Her lifeless body crumpled on the floor....

A Hall Of Mirrors

In the International Museum of Mirrors in Burbank, California, I was standing alongside my parents & little sister. They were getting bored, looking at their dumb reflections circling the room on all sides. I gazed at the stupendous panoply.
“ Come on, let’s go,” my sister blurted out.My parents agreed at the suggestion, but I stood fascinated at the numerous pieces of me staring at me with bespectacled eyes.I told my parents that I’d stay there a little longer & promised to meet them in front of the museum in half an hour. They agreed & walked away. As I went from place to place, studying each one carefully & distinguishing it from the other, I had a strange sensation that I was being watched.
“I am being watched by myself only,” I chuckled at my joke.
When I stood in front of one & was examining it, I saw a flash of light in the glass & then a completely different world appeared before me.

I noticed that I’d grown up into a minister & was the president of The United States Of America. I was enjoying the power in my hands & lavishly spending my time.A phone rang, I picked it up & smiled heartlessly & cruelly.When my sub-ordinates enquired about the matter, I told them the whole of Asia has been conquered; they’re now in our hands.There was a burst of applause & congratulations started pouring in.I was at once named the most successful of all the presidents & thoroughly honored.The White House became the subject of every conversation. Washington D.C. was showered by innumerable supporters from all parts of the country- Dallas, New York, Philadelphia, Miami, Anchorage, Las Vegas, San Francisco & many others.Press reporters & cameramen flooded my sides, asking all sorts of questions about my remarkable achievement. The TV channels flashed pictures of thousands of tortured men & women, lying naked on the streets, dead.Vultures & other scavengers were zooming in & feasting on their big supper. The ones alive were made prisoners-of-war & treated like slaves. Chains tied around their necks, they were being dragged across the pavements. The pain they suffered was excruciating.All my American soldiers were laughing their hearts out, the inhuman cruelty seemed like some form of amusement to them.The newspapers read lengthy articles with huge headings “3 cheers for the President” & “America: The ruler of the world.”
Seeing the intolerable scenes, I turned away from the mirror in abomination & walked to another one, my heart aching with agony that I could be so unforgiving, heartless & monstrous. But, as I rounded off another mirror, a similar flash appeared & in it, I could visualize myself as a doctor, a cardiologist surgeon.

This gave me some hope & I looked in more closely.
I was the head of the department of Cardiology in the J.F. Kennedy National Hospital in New York City. I was a respected person & reputed too. At that time, I was engaged in a critical surgery involving a heart transplant. The success rate being very rare, I was gripped with anxiety & tension & never, lost my heart. After 12 hours of brain cracking nervousness, I emerged victorious, I’d saved a 80 year old woman from the hands of death. I felt on top of the world & full of life & happiness, nothing could go wrong, it seemed. There was much excitement inside the operation theatre, all my colleagues congratulating each other. When the world comes to know of my achievement, I’d surely be awarded. And as expected, the very next thing I knew was that I was being awarded the most prestigious medal in the history of medicine. The newspapers hailed me as “The Savior” & my picture flooded the television channels. On the skies above, I could see God smiling at me, blessing & beckoning me for more such performances. Glad at heart, I left that mirror too, thinking about the huge contrast in my character that I’d witnessed just a moment ago. So, I learnt a valuable lesson that exercising unwanted powers to rule over the people doesn’t earn a place in heaven, but, helping them is the surest way to salvation. I thought of the U.S. president misusing his powers, killing people like a tyrant & on the other hand, a man saving the life of another fellow human being in the same country!

As I neared the exit doors, I could see my family beaming at me.“What did you learn from a bunch of mirrors?” father asked.“A thousand valuable things that can’t be told,” came my answer.My parents & sister looked at me with narrow, questioning eyes.
I smiled to myself, “You’ll never know what priceless teachings I got from them.”

Tuesday, December 4, 2007

Unspoken Grief


A silent tear punctuated
His placid eyes, And
swiftly rolled down his cheek onto the floor,
A forlorn moon gazed at the black silhouette-
Standing at the window,
His mind racing in another universe, Of
happiness & freedom,
A life he'd longed for so badly,
A life that would end all his miseries.
Below, the roar of the sea intensified his
Dying feelings, Intensified his restlessness
to abandon this material world,
To reunite with his Lord.
He wouldn't have to be itinerant any more,
He wouldn't have to beg for mercy any more,
Many a crime he had perpetrated with ruthless aggression,
And yet, he had felt sympathy for the victims sometimes.
He wasn't that bad after all.
"But, what does it all matter now?", he said aloud
"When Black has engrossed me?"
This inevitable end seemed to be the only fitting conclusion
For a life led in an inscrutable manner, A life
difficult for the ordinary to comprehend.
Yes, he had accomplished all his goals,
And now it was time to lay down his soul
On the Eternal Earth,
For he had abhorred life!
The golden days sparkled ahead,
Free of human emotions, free of earthly entanglements,
A life less desired by the ordinary,
But he was no ordinary.
At this thought, a smile spread across his lips,
Lightened his heart, soothed his nerves,
He was free, he was alone
He was going Home,
Yet, there was the tear....

Monday, December 3, 2007

The Years Go By

By my beloved friend, Suprateek Mitra....



I still remember the days I walked into nursery,
A small little bag & absolutely no worry,
School was great! School was fun,
I always longed for the next day to come.
Games and streamers were all that were that there;
Wherever I looked- here, there & everywhere.

On came the years.
And we all grew with it,
The kiddish jokes disappeared
And days had practical jokes in it.
School was good, school was good.
And all things went on as they should.
Junior, Middle & Senior came by-
We sat on the wings of time, and let it all fly by....

"Let's bunk class!" became the new motto,
It still is, but everyone gets tired of it....
Someday!

Years went on, studies became harder,
And what do you know? We all became smarter....
Though the years still go by,
There no longer will be school-
For, it's going to end in a month or two.

As the years go by, we will fly-
But there is going to be no school,
And that my friends, is a reason to cry!

A tragic reality we all have to accept, we all have to get used to, how hard we crave to get those days back, time doesn't permit us to fulfil our desires, and those glorious days we enjoyed in our "second home" remain sparkling as diamonds in our "pebble-studded" life!


P.S. The author of this poem was too lazy & shy to post this on his blog (www.supratik.blogspot.com), so, I took the initiative of bringing this poem into the limelight with the consent of my friend.


Sunday, December 2, 2007

The Stone

"And will you cut a stone for him,
To set above his head?
And will you cut a stone for him--
A stone for him?" she said.

Three days before, a splintered rock
Had struck her lover dead--
Had struck him in the quarry dead,
Where, careless of a warning call,
He loitered, while the shot was fired--
A lively stripling, brave and tall,
And sure of all his heart desired . . .
A flash, a shock,
A rumbling fall . . .
And, broken 'neath the broken rock,
A lifeless heap, with face of clay,
And still as any stone he lay,
With eyes that saw the end of all.

I went to break the news to her:
And I could hear my own heart beat
With dread of what my lips might say;
But some poor fool had sped before;
And, flinging wide her father's door,
Had blurted out the news to her,
Had struck her lover dead for her,
Had struck the girl's heart dead in her,
Had struck life, lifeless, at a word,
And dropped it at her feet:
Then hurried on his witless way,
Scarce knowing she had heard.

And when I came, she stood alone--
A woman, turned to stone:
And, though no word at all she said,
I knew that all was known.

Because her heart was dead,
She did not sigh nor moan.
His mother wept:
She could not weep.
Her lover slept:
She could not sleep.
Three days, three nights,
She did not stir:
Three days, three nights,
Were one to her,
Who never closed her eyes
From sunset to sunrise,
From dawn to evenfall--
Her tearless, staring eyes,
That, seeing naught, saw all.

The fourth night when I came from work,
I found her at my door.
"And will you cut a stone for him?"
She said: and spoke no more:
But followed me, as I went in,
And sank upon a chair;
And fixed her grey eyes on my face,
With still, unseeing stare.
And, as she waited patiently,
I could not bear to feel
Those still, grey eyes that followed me,
Those eyes that plucked the heart from me,
Those eyes that sucked the breath from me
And curdled the warm blood in me,
Those eyes that cut me to the bone,
And cut my marrow like cold steel.

And so I rose and sought a stone;
And cut it smooth and square:
And, as I worked, she sat and watched,
Beside me, in her chair.
Night after night, by candlelight,
I cut her lover's name:
Night after night, so still and white,
And like a ghost she came;
And sat beside me, in her chair,
And watched with eyes aflame.

She eyed each stroke,
And hardly stirred:
she never spoke
A single word:
And not a sound or murmur broke
The quiet, save the mallet stroke.

With still eyes ever on my hands,
With eyes that seemed to burn my hands,
My wincing, overwearied hands,
She watched, with bloodless lips apart,
And silent, indrawn breath:
And every stroke my chisel cut,
Death cut still deeper in her heart:
The two of us were chiselling,
Together, I and Death.

And when at length my job was done,
And I had laid the mallet by,
As if, at last, her peace were won,
She breathed his name, and, with a sigh,
Passed slowly through the open door:
And never crossed my threshold more.

Next night I laboured late, alone,
To cut her name upon the stone.

----Wilfred Wilson Gibson----


The poignancy & intensity of the woman's love & the heart-writhing sadness still continue to mesmerize me, after I have gone through this one more than 30 times.

Saturday, December 1, 2007

Fortitude....



I've died in a thousand dreams
I've strolled on a million lands,
I've committed innumerable minute errors-
That have pulled my life into a quick sand.
Teachers have punished me for various wrong doings,

Friends have treated with disrespect for the unspeakables;
Parents have hung their heads in shame
Trying to cover up my actions, terming them with different labels.
Elders have been outraged by the shocking arrogance

Girls have fled from the insolent behavior,
God has also shunned this eccentric soul-

Leaving me to be my "own life's seer"!

Obstacles have deterred me from achieving salvation

Society has kept me in an unremitting exile,
Failures have shattered tiny bubbles of hopes,
Degrading it to a baffling journey of countless miles!
There isn't a tragedy that has eluded me,
There isn't a thunderstorm that hasn't passed by my door,

I've been "long dead" in the books of the cowards,
No, I'm alive, standing unscathed, asking for "more"!






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